I find this quote very refreshing as I lay awake in bed. Life is about living, not about finding what you’ll be like at some future point. The journey is the important thing to recognize every day as we build the foundation for tomorrow.

A New Yoga Beginning

A New Beginning

I’m starting yoga. Again. I had started practicing about a year ago until I was in the hospital off and on for the last four months of 2020. I was beginning to feel the benefits of yoga, but that ground to a screeching halt.

I have regained as much strength as possible since January, and I feel ready to start my yoga journey again. I’m humble enough to start at the very basic level once again. I will take things slowly, and focus on my technique and doing things right, not just racing through things.

I’m prepared to fail in the first few attempts because my endurance is very low, but I’ll keep after it until I complete the beginner course and then move on to the next course. One of my meditation lessons is all about failing better each time I try something new, because that is how you succeed in the long term.

Last year, I was using the DDPYoga app. For some reason I cannot get it to work this year, so I’m moving to the Glo app. It fills the requirements I need, so I’ll give it a shot. I prefer to start yoga at home by myself before attempting it in a group setting. There is a studio nearby that I can use, but my self-confidence is lacking right now. The last thing I want is to take my out-of-shape self in front of a bunch of other people.

I could certainly use some inspiration from others who are practicing yoga. Tell me your story.

Perspective

“With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.”

Max Ehrmann

A powerful message that I found this morning. I’m struggling with the purpose of my life, what I can do to make this a better place. Sadly, I veer towards negativity when I look at the world we live in. I feel powerless to change things, and this upsets me.

I need to practice gratitude daily and stop pouring over the news every day. The information generally upsets me, and that causes stress. I need to refocus my life on positive things and turn away from negativity.

Gratitude is a difficult thing to practice when all I do is criticize something that I can not control. My mindset defeats the very concept of gratitude before I even start. I need to contain my anger and eliminate it, or it will consume me after all.

Making a change like this won’t be easy. A wise saying is that nothing worthwhile is ever easy, so that gives me confidence that I’m on the right track.

Meditation

The meditation session today ended with this quote from Jimi Hendrix. He knew what he was talking about. He brought forth such incredible music because he learned to listen to his inner voice.

I’m still getting in tune with my own inner voice. Not the angry one, I’ve listened to that one far too much in the past. I’m searching for that calm inner voice that will lead me to peace and tranquillity in my life and mind.

Is This All There Is??

Is this the best I can hope for?

I’m almost afraid to write this blog post. It is a very sensitive subject for me to discuss here, but I do know that therapy stresses writing to get my feelings out in the open.

My recovery from last fall’s hospital stays has been excellent, according to my doctors. COPD means I’ll never be a runner. I won’t play tennis or basketball anytime soon. Compared with my condition last December, I have made significant progress, but that progress has slowed down almost to the point of not improving anymore at all.

Is my current condition the highest plateau I can reach? Part of me screams “No!” but my rational side says this is probably true. I still get dizzy when I have to bend over for more than a second or two. I feel like I’m running out of breath very quickly. Thankfully, I can use meditation and controlled breathing to stop myself from getting into real trouble.

I am only mortal, as are we all. I recognize that I’m closer to the end than the beginning. I see the world going straight to hell, and there’s nothing I can do about it. Stupid people want to argue, and I don’t have the stamina for that anymore.

If what I feel now is my new apex, I want to spend a lot of time here before I start the inevitable downhill slide. I am currently focused on the quality of my life more than ever before.

I don’t plan on leaving here anytime soon.

Another John Lennon quote

“Everything will be okay in the end. If it’s not okay, it’s not the end.”

— John Lennon

Another John Lennon quote that inspires me. The message is so simple, yet we find it almost impossible to put into practice. The emphasis is that things change and that we always feel that something must be addressed. This is called life.

Dreamer’s World May 23, 2018 – Making My Own Path

     As I practiced guitar during the thunderstorm last night, I found that I was having difficulty trying to play a song that I really like. I began researching the chord structure of the song and found that some of the progressions and tabs made no sense to me. They were incredibly difficult to remember and master, and this caused a great deal of frustration.

     I decided to stop before I lost concentration, but I did some research and found that there are alternate patterns that I can use for the song. It was late after I completed my research, but I am going to try these new chord patterns out tonight during practice.

     The whole series of events got me thinking about why we don’t try new things in our own lives? We don’t have to alter our ultimate goal, but we can find our own way of getting there if we put our minds to it. Retracing the steps of others can be educational, but it is not the sole means of learning. Tha ability to think for ourselves makes the different path more appealing and exciting.

     How often do we hear on our jobs that we should “think outside the box” to create new and better processes? The guitar scenario is exactly the same thing. It is the opportunity for me to learn a different way of doing something that makes it more enjoyable and enticing for me.

     I will go my own way this evening, and I predict that I will have a great time and make some noticeable progress in my quest to be a better guitar player. The real challenge will be to take that lesson and apply it to the rest of my life.

Dreamer’s World March 23, 2018 – March Madness Is Over

    March Madness is over with, at least for me. My alma mater, the University of Kentucky, was eliminated from the tournament last night after a hard-fought and mistake-prone battle with Kansas State. I cannot sit here and say that Kentucky deserved to win for any logical reason, they played a sloppy game and were lucky to be in it until the final buzzer.
    I am not an emotional fan these days. I can no longer afford the luxury of wallowing in self-pity over a loss. I can say that the Kentucky fan base has behaved very poorly over the last few years and that behavior seems to be getting worse, at least judging from the online community. I know that some of these online fans are nothing more than children, they show the emotional response of spoiled infants when things don’t go their way.
    Sadly, this immature behavior has extended to the coaching staff to a degree. After Kentucky lost last year, Kentucky coach John Calipari openly complained about the officiating in the loss, and this encouraged the childish fans to react and threaten the livelihood and the life of the official after the game. I was very annoyed with this behavior, but I hoped that there was a lesson learned and something like this would not happen again.
    Fast forward to last night, and the Kentucky coaches and team walked off the court without congratulating Kansas State after the game. I cannot excuse that behavior, it has to be condemned. If that is the lesson, then the teacher is at fault.