Dreamer’s World February 05, 2018 – The Roller Coaster Of Insomnia

    I managed to get a decent night of rest for a change. Of course, this was only after Saturday night, when I woke up at 0200 and stayed up the rest of the night. At least I feel much better today after nearly 7 hours of uninterrupted sleep.
    Thankfully, this morning has not been hectic at work, except for computer issues that always seem to happen on Monday morning. I had to contact IT with the help of a coworker since I couldn’t send an email stating that there was a problem. I am still waiting to hear from them over 3 hours later, but I googled the issue on my personal laptop and found a workaround that got me up and running this morning. With any luck, the work machine will not act up anymore for the rest of the day.
    I am happy about the outcome from the Super Bowl although I didn’t watch until the last few minutes of the game since I saw that the score was close. As long as New England lost, I am happy because I am sick and tired of them. I thought of my friend Donald as the game ended. Donald was killed in a motorcycle accident several years ago, and he was from Philly. Obviously, he was a huge Eagles fan, and I am sure that he would have enjoyed the game. I texted his daughter, and she was ecstatic. I haven’t heard from Nicola yet. That isn’t a surprise since she moved back to Scotland last year, but by this time she knows what happened.
    On the personal front, aside from insomnia, I am doing well. I want to get this day over and be productive at work before I have to take Hal to his job late this afternoon and then pick him up late in the evening. If the traffic isn’t too bad, I might stop at Costco for a few things while Hal is at work. In short, another typical week starts for me. I just hope that it will be the week when insomnia finally goes away as well.

Dreamer’s World February 02, 2018 – Zombiefied Friday

    Taking a nap seemed like such a great idea after work yesterday. I slept like a rock for almost 2 hours after Hal decided that we didn’t need to go anywhere or do anything. When I woke up on the couch, I felt terrific. I should have known at that point that the feeling was too good to last. I was awake most of the night with insomnia once again, and I have to make it through 7 hours at work today before the weekend officially begins. I am so used to this bullshit that it doesn’t phase me anymore. I know that I will survive the day at work and then some things must be done afterward, so I will venture out with Hal to take care of those things while keeping the exhaustion at bay until we return home in the early evening.
    The main thing I need to do is to make a trip to the grocery store. There are some items I need to cook this weekend while Hal is at work. These are perishable items, so I can’t get them and then have them sitting around for the better part of a week before using them. At least I can get some custom-made items from the local Wegmans supermarket such as cut veggies that are prepared for me when I tell them what I want. Wegmans is the only supermarket I have ever seen where they will do this, and it is a time-saver in the kitchen since I don’t have to cut up all the veggies myself. I will be picking up green pepper, onion, and celery and carrots while I am there.
    Once that is over with, we might stop at Target and Best Buy on the way home for a quick look around. I can use a laptop sleeve for the Surface Pro 4 and also another one for the Chromebook so they will be safe while traveling in the Chrome messenger bag since it doesn’t have a dedicated laptop compartment. The laptop sleeve is not a critical item to get today and can wait until I find the right laptop sleeve at the right price. If we don’t go to either Target or Best Buy at all, I won’t be that disappointed.
    My primary objective is to get to bed early tonight and hope to defeat insomnia for a change. I know that I will be up early to take Hal to work in the morning, that is a fixed event and the time won’t change based on how I feel tomorrow. The next challenge will be staying awake and productive while Hal is at work on Saturday. The same problem has to be solved, and that is getting to bed early and hoping for the best when it comes to sleep.

Dreamer’s World February 02, 2018 – Zombiefied Friday

    Taking a nap seemed like such a great idea after work yesterday. I slept like a rock for almost 2 hours after Hal decided that we didn’t need to go anywhere or do anything. When I woke up on the couch, I felt terrific. I should have known at that point that the feeling was too good to last. I was awake most of the night with insomnia once again, and I have to make it through 7 hours at work today before the weekend officially begins. I am so used to this bullshit that it doesn’t phase me anymore. I know that I will survive the day at work and then some things must be done afterward, so I will venture out with Hal to take care of those things while keeping the exhaustion at bay until we return home in the early evening.
    The main thing I need to do is to make a trip to the grocery store. There are some items I need to cook this weekend while Hal is at work. These are perishable items, so I can’t get them and then have them sitting around for the better part of a week before using them. At least I can get some custom-made items from the local Wegmans supermarket such as cut veggies that are prepared for me when I tell them what I want. Wegmans is the only supermarket I have ever seen where they will do this, and it is a time-saver in the kitchen since I don’t have to cut up all the veggies myself. I will be picking up green pepper, onion, and celery and carrots while I am there.
    Once that is over with, we might stop at Target and Best Buy on the way home for a quick look around. I can use a laptop sleeve for the Surface Pro 4 and also another one for the Chromebook so they will be safe while traveling in the Chrome messenger bag since it doesn’t have a dedicated laptop compartment. The laptop sleeve is not a critical item to get today and can wait until I find the right laptop sleeve at the right price. If we don’t go to either Target or Best Buy at all, I won’t be that disappointed.
    My primary objective is to get to bed early tonight and hope to defeat insomnia for a change. I know that I will be up early to take Hal to work in the morning, that is a fixed event and the time won’t change based on how I feel tomorrow. The next challenge will be staying awake and productive while Hal is at work on Saturday. The same problem has to be solved, and that is getting to bed early and hoping for the best when it comes to sleep.

Dreamer’s World February 01, 2018 – Friday Eve

    Today is Friday Eve. I always refer to Thursdays as “Friday Eve” because it means that we are one day closer to the weekend. I have been busy this week at work, as well as dealing with lack of sleep for far too many nights, so I am ready for the weekend to arrive. Sadly, the weekend doesn’t bring the relief that it used to because now I have to take Hal to and from his job since he can no longer drive. This is a small price to pay for over 18 years of a wonderful relationship, but it does cut into time I would have spent sleeping or doing other things.
    With luck I will get more rest tMy objective is to be in bed before 2200 on Sunday night because I have the long day on Monday since I take Hal to p hurting me more than I would like. One other thing that I have changed is my dependence on social media. I fouhis weekend. I already have planned to go bed early rather than stay up late. As I get older, staying up late ends uo. nd t hat I was checking sites constantly on the weekend, afraid that I was going to miss something important only to discover that I missed nothing other than sleep. I can always record MST3K on Sunday night and watch it later during the weekand from work Monday evening and don’t get to bed before 2300 if I am lucky.
    Because of those things, I am glad that the weekend is nearly here. As for today, I am waiting to conduct my weekly teleconference and then I will get some lunch before the endless rounds of afternoon meetings start. I have some research that I have to finish today, and I will do that as I listen in on the afternoon meetings.
    The afternoon meetings are worse than I feared. Nothing is being accomplished, everyone at HQ is arguing with each other and I have to listen to them. Thank goodness for the mute button as I struggle to avoid making comments as I tune everyone out and focus on my tasking here. I made it through the meetings with my sanity nearly intact. I am amazed at the time wasted with these meetings.
    Hal decided that we didn’t need to go anywhere after work, so we stayed home all evening. I took a nap after work, but it cost me overnight as insomnia returned. I am still looking forward to the weekend.

Dreamer’s World January 09, 2018 – No Sleep

    
    Insomnia has returned to my life once again. I wish I knew what was causing it to happen to me tonight, but I cannot. As the clock reads 0200, I get up from my bed and wander to the desk and start up the laptop. I decided to write directly into Grammarly this time, so I can correct as I type and then transfer the post over to Evernote. Once that is done, I then have to insert a tag onto the note, and it will publish to both my WordPress and Blogger accounts without any further effort on my part. Perhaps this is the simplified writing toolset that I have been seeking. I only have to cut and paste once, and that is after the grammar checks are all complete.
   I know that sleep will not come for at least 2 hours. Insomnia and I are old friends, but the type that I dislike running into at any time. I suppose I should be grateful because before the last two nights I had gone for months without insomnia. The recurrence just adds to the confusion about why it reappeared.
    Perhaps this will be the last visit for awhile. I certainly hope so and will try to do everything necessary to avoid it this evening. No matter how tired I become, I must resist the temptation to take a nap because that usually backfires on me later on when I go to bed for the night. Until then, I will write and think about things that might be keeping me awake as my old friend Insomnia sits and laughs at me.

Dreamer’s World January 3, 2018 – Living Every Moment

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     Being happy is something that everyone wants in their life. Sadly, this is impossible because life doesn’t work that way. We all go through highs and lows, and we have to remember that this is all a part of the journey. If everything were perfect all of the time, we would have nothing to indicate that we are happy at any given point in our life.

     As insomnia keeps me awake, I think about this. There is nothing pleasant about not being able to sleep, but it can lead to some useful time for thinking if I let it. I know that there are things that demand my attention as I try to sleep. Writing is one of those things, and I am allowing it to occupy my mind in the middle of the night as the rest of the world sensibly sleeps.

     I wish at times like this that I could not have insomnia, but that isn’t my choice. I have to deal with this in the best way that I can. At least I know that I will not be traveling to the client’s office later this morning because it is just too damn cold to stand around waiting on a bus just to get me to a train station where I have to stand around waiting for a train. The first thing I will do when I start work this morning is to notify the client that I am not coming in today but that I will be available via phone or email if they need to reach me.

     As a part of the things I will do while I am awake, I am writing this blog post in Google Docs for a change. I want to have some different experiences to stimulate my mind as I cannot sleep.

 

 

Dreamer’s World January 6 2016 – Rest And Sleep

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     When I returned home after my short business trip this morning, I worked until quitting time. Since today is my early day, that meant I worked until 1530. Once I had finished, I almost immediately went and laid down and within a few minutes I was completely asleep.
     I suppose that this isn’t too surprising since I had a severe bout of insomnia last night. I got only about 2 hours rest and really felt it this morning. Thankfully I was able to complete my tasks for the day before the exhaustion simply became too much for me to handle any longer. I was at the end of my limits and I knew it.
     I woke up and it is almost 2000 in the evening. I had hoped to go out to dinner with Hal (person) this evening since today is our 16th anniversary but that won’t be happening tonight. Hal was also tired because he worked today as well, although he was awake before I was early this evening, he didn’t wake me. I know that one of the things that defines a relationship is understanding and Hal told me that we can celebrate any other evening when I feel more refreshed. I cannot describe how good that made me feel to know that he cares that much about me.
     Therefore, what could have been a post describing a wonderful romantic evening together becomes an even more meaningful post about relationships and caring and love and support. I can live with that.