DDP YOGA Day 2

Day 2 Yoga

To be fair, day 2 is a repeat of day 1. I’ll be doing the introductory program for a week before moving to the next level. There’s no reason for me to push myself so hard that I get discouraged and quit.

The introductory exercises are gentle and formulated to “wake up” muscles that haven’t been used in a long time. Having said that, I feel the stretch that I’ve done the first two days.

Starting Yoga Again

Yesterday I finally started yoga again.

I realized that I wasn’t going to feel better unless I did something to get myself moving. I overcame a few obstacles with the yoga app before starting because I didn’t want things messed up with my account.

I feel better after the first day. I know that real change takes time, but at least I’ve taken the first step.

Next Round of Appointments

Next Round of Appointments

Later today, I start my next round of medical appointments. I’m not overtly worried, but there is still some concern about what is going on.

I feel like I’ve hit the wall with my recovery, and might have fallen back somewhat. Recovery is hard work, and very tiring even with the best intentions. My main ailment, breathing, remains limited due to COPD. I know that I might be at the apex of my recovery on this issue and I can only maintain it for so long.

I suppose that is one reason I’m awake in the middle of the night, wondering what the news about my health will be.

I’ve finished with my first appointment, my primary doctor says I’m doing well, and that’s a relief to me. Tomorrow is the pulmonary doctor and another waiting game.

A New Yoga Beginning

A New Beginning

I’m starting yoga. Again. I had started practicing about a year ago until I was in the hospital off and on for the last four months of 2020. I was beginning to feel the benefits of yoga, but that ground to a screeching halt.

I have regained as much strength as possible since January, and I feel ready to start my yoga journey again. I’m humble enough to start at the very basic level once again. I will take things slowly, and focus on my technique and doing things right, not just racing through things.

I’m prepared to fail in the first few attempts because my endurance is very low, but I’ll keep after it until I complete the beginner course and then move on to the next course. One of my meditation lessons is all about failing better each time I try something new, because that is how you succeed in the long term.

Last year, I was using the DDPYoga app. For some reason I cannot get it to work this year, so I’m moving to the Glo app. It fills the requirements I need, so I’ll give it a shot. I prefer to start yoga at home by myself before attempting it in a group setting. There is a studio nearby that I can use, but my self-confidence is lacking right now. The last thing I want is to take my out-of-shape self in front of a bunch of other people.

I could certainly use some inspiration from others who are practicing yoga. Tell me your story.

Is This All There Is??

Is this the best I can hope for?

I’m almost afraid to write this blog post. It is a very sensitive subject for me to discuss here, but I do know that therapy stresses writing to get my feelings out in the open.

My recovery from last fall’s hospital stays has been excellent, according to my doctors. COPD means I’ll never be a runner. I won’t play tennis or basketball anytime soon. Compared with my condition last December, I have made significant progress, but that progress has slowed down almost to the point of not improving anymore at all.

Is my current condition the highest plateau I can reach? Part of me screams “No!” but my rational side says this is probably true. I still get dizzy when I have to bend over for more than a second or two. I feel like I’m running out of breath very quickly. Thankfully, I can use meditation and controlled breathing to stop myself from getting into real trouble.

I am only mortal, as are we all. I recognize that I’m closer to the end than the beginning. I see the world going straight to hell, and there’s nothing I can do about it. Stupid people want to argue, and I don’t have the stamina for that anymore.

If what I feel now is my new apex, I want to spend a lot of time here before I start the inevitable downhill slide. I am currently focused on the quality of my life more than ever before.

I don’t plan on leaving here anytime soon.

Truth

I had not seen this quote before, but it is true and makes perfect sense. We need a goal to strive for, without one we stagnate and die. Keep pushing and things will work out.

Learning

Learning

Since I rededicated myself to meditation, I’ve noticed subtle changes, even after only a few days. I cope with things differently, and I’m learning not to react to any little thing by immediately ramping up to level 10 instantly.

I know that I feel better and less stressed out. I am still focused on sleeping better, and that is improving. As I get more rest, I find more energy to focus positively on myself and those around me.

It’s never too late to start meditating. The benefits are tremendous.

Dreamers World June 29 2016 – Nearly There

     As I make my way back from my morning meeting with the client, I am enjoying a glorious summer day. After the storms last night, the skies are clear and blue and it isn’t hot and humid, at least not yet. When I get home, I am changing out of the suit and putting on some comfortable clothes to get me through the remainder of the workday. Luckily, this is my early day and I will be off work at 1530. 
     Immediately after work, I am going to my doctor to discuss the results from the lab work that was done last week. I don’t expect any problems and then I can return home to rest and relax.  I am still suffering from back spasms today, and I am not sure at times how I will survive until Friday when I have my chiropractor appointment in the morning. I will probably ask Hal if he feels like giving me a massage after my doctor appointment this afternoon. Thankfully, he said that he would. I wasn’t sure that he would feel like it after dealing with his own job earlier today.
     The afternoon should be quiet around here and since I leave work early today, I am already trying to relax, but the back spasms are making that nearly impossible. I am getting things all set for tomorrow, my last day of work before vacation because I don’t want things piling up on me at the last minute, or while I am away to overwhelm me when I get back.

Dreamers World June 29 2016 – Nearly There

     As I make my way back from my morning meeting with the client, I am enjoying a glorious summer day. After the storms last night, the skies are clear and blue and it isn’t hot and humid, at least not yet. When I get home, I am changing out of the suit and putting on some comfortable clothes to get me through the remainder of the workday. Luckily, this is my early day and I will be off work at 1530. 
     Immediately after work, I am going to my doctor to discuss the results from the lab work that was done last week. I don’t expect any problems and then I can return home to rest and relax.  I am still suffering from back spasms today, and I am not sure at times how I will survive until Friday when I have my chiropractor appointment in the morning. I will probably ask Hal if he feels like giving me a massage after my doctor appointment this afternoon. Thankfully, he said that he would. I wasn’t sure that he would feel like it after dealing with his own job earlier today.
     The afternoon should be quiet around here and since I leave work early today, I am already trying to relax, but the back spasms are making that nearly impossible. I am getting things all set for tomorrow, my last day of work before vacation because I don’t want things piling up on me at the last minute, or while I am away to overwhelm me when I get back.