Dreamer’s World October 1 2015 – RWNJ Benghazi FRAUD

  
    After the admission by House republiKKKans that the Benghazi hearings have been nothing more than an attempt to smear former Secretary of State Hillary Clinton as a means of impacting her Presidential campaign. I want to propose that the salaries of ALL republiKKKans involved be directly deposited into the general operating fund of the US budget. Those lunatics should NOT be paid again until all the money that they have wasted playing political games has been returned.

Dreamer’s World September 30 2015

  


I took today off work in order to get Hal to his medical appointment this morning. It was time for his 5-year colonoscopy and I had spent last night taking care of him as he prepared for the ordeal this morning. We got up very early in order to get him to the appointment on time, and I dropped him off. I fully expected to get the call to come back in approximately 4 hours or so, based on the last time we did this. Actually, he called me less than an hour after I dropped him off work.

I am very glad to report that everything is fine, There is no sign of any problems and the ordeal is over with for several more years. I am glad that I am off work to be here to help Hal as he recovers from this. Right now he is still sleeping off the drugs they gave him. I will let him rest as much as he needs to. I am sure that he will have his appetite back once he is awake and alert, so I will make sure that something is ready for him to eat at that time.

Hal slept for about 3 hours after I got him home. He woke up and I had some lunch ready for him, and he was grateful for that. Turns out that spending the day here and off work was the right choice as I make sure he recovers properly.

The next big item on the horizon here is Joaquin, the hurricane that is forecast to possibly hit the East Coast around the weekend. I am going to Harris Teeter later today before all the panic buying starts. Thankfully, we don’t need much from the store but it pays to plan ahead. I will also get gas in the Beetle since it is running low.

I decided to go ahead and get the items and fill the gas tank, and I just got back. It was nice to avoid the crowds that will form later today. I also want to thank President Obama for $2.35 a gallon for gas! At least we are prepared for lots of rain now. Living on the 4th floor means that the flooding risk is not a concern, especially since our building is on a hill. Working from home means that even if there are roads flooded, it won’t directly affect us.

I ended up taking a nap early this evening after it was apparent that Hal is going to be OK. I needed the rest, to be honest and I feel better. Tomorrow I will be back at work here from home and things will return to normal.

  


I took today off work in order to get Hal to his medical appointment this morning. It was time for his 5-year colonoscopy and I had spent last night taking care of him as he prepared for the ordeal this morning. We got up very early in order to get him to the appointment on time, and I dropped him off. I fully expected to get the call to come back in approximately 4 hours or so, based on the last time we did this. Actually, he called me less than an hour after I dropped him off work.

I am very glad to report that everything is fine, There is no sign of any problems and the ordeal is over with for several more years. I am glad that I am off work to be here to help Hal as he recovers from this. Right now he is still sleeping off the drugs they gave him. I will let him rest as much as he needs to. I am sure that he will have his appetite back once he is awake and alert, so I will make sure that something is ready for him to eat at that time.

Hal slept for about 3 hours after I got him home. He woke up and I had some lunch ready for him, and he was grateful for that. Turns out that spending the day here and off work was the right choice as I make sure he recovers properly.

The next big item on the horizon here is Joaquin, the hurricane that is forecast to possibly hit the East Coast around the weekend. I am going to Harris Teeter later today before all the panic buying starts. Thankfully, we don’t need much from the store but it pays to plan ahead. I will also get gas in the Beetle since it is running low.

I decided to go ahead and get the items and fill the gas tank, and I just got back. It was nice to avoid the crowds that will form later today. I also want to thank President Obama for $2.35 a gallon for gas! At least we are prepared for lots of rain now. Living on the 4th floor means that the flooding risk is not a concern, especially since our building is on a hill. Working from home means that even if there are roads flooded, it won’t directly affect us.

I ended up taking a nap early this evening after it was apparent that Hal is going to be OK. I needed the rest, to be honest and I feel better. Tomorrow I will be back at work here from home and things will return to normal.

Dreamer’s World – The Walls

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The walls are going up again. I don’t have any other way to explain what I am going through right now. The walls protected me through some really tough times. The walls kept people from getting too close. The walls kept me safe. I was taught since I was a child to keep the walls strong, and to only let people in who I cared about and who also cared about me.

    Caring is a funny word. To care for someone, at least to me, is to be there for them and to stand with them when they need someone. It is impossible to care for someone for very long when that caring and that trust is not reciprocated. I am feeling right now that I have let my guard down, I have neglected my obligation to myself to keep the walls strong.

    Right now I have Hal and the Stooges with me inside my fortress. They will remain inside with me due to love and caring but the outside world is really begging for me to strengthen the walls again to keep it out.

    Try as I might, there are times when I cease to be a “people person” due to things that happen. My cool or even cold exterior reasserts itself and I can honestly ignore people without hesitation. I am having those feelings once again.

    To most, this might give the impression that I am unhappy, but that isn’t the case. The walls protect me when I feel vulnerable, after all that is what walls are for. I am as taught as a young child to be self-sufficient. Since I was an only child, this has proven to be good advice because I have never had the extended family to rely on. I never had anyone to bring inside my walls. This changed when I met Hal. He understands how I feel and he accepts it because I never try to place him outside the walls.

    As I grow older, I have tried many times to lower the walls in order to be more, for lack of a better word, “normal”. These attempts have never been successful except for Hal. I am tired of feeling exposed. I am tired of seeing people climb over the walls I failed to maintain in order to attempt to exploit myself or Hal. I am tired of monitoring the abandoned walls to protect myself and Hal.

    Thus the walls are going back up. They are a part of who I am and those who dislike the walls obviously aren’t the people I would ever allow to breach them.

    I don’t owe any explanations to anyone for my action. I won’t discuss these things in an open forum because I don’t think it is the right thing to do. Suffice it to say that I have spent an entire weekend trying to figure out what has been bothering me and I have found the cause.

    The walls need repair. The walls need to be raised again. I need the safety that the walls provide me. I need the peace of mind that the walls provide me. I need the reassurance that the walls provide me.

    The walls enable me to protect who I am. I am a good person, but far too often I am too trusting. It is something that defines me and not something that I am ashamed of. The walls allow me the breathing room to get on with my life and focus on what is important.

    That is the reason Hal is inside the walls I have, although I never attempt to restrict him from his own life and involvements. So the walls are going up again. I don’t know when, or if, they will come down again. I just know that I need the walls right now.

Dreamer’s World September 27 2015

  

    Sunday is here, and I am definitely staying home today. I have a package from Amazon that should be arriving at some point during the day, and I really have no need to spend any money. It looks like there is a chance that we MIGHT be able to see the Blood Moon tonight, but that can always change depending on the weather. I will try to get some pics if I am able.

    Hal is at work today, and I have the place to myself along with the Stooges of course. Since it is not after noon yet, there is no football to watch. Thankfully, I can watch NFL Redzone rather than the awful choices given to us due to our location. 

     If I seem rather disinterested today, I am. I don’t know exactly what is going on to make me feel this way, but the feeling is real. Perhaps it is the crappy weather this weekend that is affecting me, if it isn’t that, then I really have no idea what is causing this. I don’t feel depressed, just completely detached from things right now. Nothing has gone wrong here, in fact nothing has happened at all. 

     I’m hopeful that a good night of restful sleep will have me back to normal tomorrow. 

Dreamer’s World September 26 2015

      

    The weekend is here at last. After am extremely long day on Friday, Hal and I stayed home last night and had dinner before relaxing for the rest of the evening. Because Hal had to work today, he went to bed early. I stayed up late and ended up making a real mess in the kitchen. As I was making a drink, I knocked the glass over on the counter and before I could stop it, the liquid got to my BG meter. Frantic attempts to dry it off and prevent damage were fruitless, and so I had to go out to the local CVS which is open 24 hours to get a new BG meter.

    I really hate when I do something so clumsy like knocking a glass over. I have no one to blame but myself for the accident and the lesson is that I will NEVER leave my new BG meter in the kitchen on the counter ever again. It wasn’t the expense, because the BG meter only costs $25, it was the inner rage at myself for being so clumsy and careless in the first place. I must have berated myself internally for about 30 minutes as I cleaned things up in the kitchen before I ventured to CVS to get the new BG meter.

    As I checked my diabetic supply bag, in which I keep my BG meter and other supplies, the damage from last night is noticeable so I have just ordered a replacement nag thru Amazon and that should arrive tomorrow.

On rare occasions, I will have these internal explosions. I know that they are not good for me, but sometimes a random event can trigger them like last night. I need to explore why this happens to me, and take steps to eliminate this from my life. I don’t feel as if I am internalizing these things, perhaps it is just a way for me to release pressure from other things in my life without realizing it.

    As for today, I’m staying home. There is no reason that I have to go out and I need some rest anyway. I will be watching football and eating what is already here rather than ordering food. I want to save as much money as I can during this pay period. The weather is unsettled here as well, so that is yet another reason to stay at home now.

    We all need some quiet times in our lives. A time when we can rest, relax, and not have to worry about anything. I think that this weekend is just like that for me.

I really enjoyed Dr. Who this evening. I am more impressed with Capaldi every time I see him. To make the evening complete, UK managed to win a game this evening and they are now 3-1 on the year. Being a UK football fan is a difficult thing. Each loss can signify the long slide to oblivion that we are so accustomed to seeing. I am very happy that they won.

On that note, I am closing this post and want to wish everyone a great tomorrow.

Drreamer’s World September 21 2015 – The Promise and the Danger of Bernie Sanders

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I am feeling the Bern. I will be voting for Bernie Sanders in the Democratic primary, and hopefully in the general election in 2016. I am tremendously impressed with Bernie and what he stands for. I honestly believe that he is the best candidate for the job. I cannot describe how impressed I am when he speaks, because he doesn’t stoop to the negative campaign tactics that are polluting American politics. I respect the fact that Bernie doesn’t take corporate contributions and instead concentrates on small donations from everyday Americans.

So what is the danger? Let’s start with the Democratic Party. The Democratic Party seems hell-bent on nominating Hilary Clinton and they are not even trying to hide this from the public. The DNC has resisted called for more candidate debates, and the resulting uproar could come back to haunt them. It is not that I have anything against Clinton, I just feel that Bernie is the best person for the job.

The second part of the danger stems from the first. Most Democratic party leaders are reluctant to endorse Bernie, even if they agree with him. Could this be becasue they fear financial repercussions from the DNC if they stray from the fold? It certainly looks like it. This situation gives the public the distinct impression that the Democratic party doesn’t really care about what a large percentage of the people really want. If the Deomcratic Party cannot bring themselves around to the idea of President Sanders, then he will have won the election and will end up being basically powerless without any support from Congress.

I truly believe that Bernie is the right person for the job. But to be sure that he can win and do great things, we all need to support Progressive candidates in the House and Senate. Promises need to be extracted from those Representatives and Senators that they WILL support Sanders. It will be up to US to hold their feet to the fire and let them know that this is a real movement and that we are tired of the BS politics as usual.

Bernie Sanders is the best candidate for President, in my humble opinion. Let’s not focus strictly on him, let’s shine the light on the rest of Congress as well in order to make some real progress in this country for the first time in 40 years. Vote for Bernie, and vote for those that will support him. If Bernie is elected and has no congressional support, then his election will have been in vain, and that is the danger.