An Old Unwelcome Friend

Insomnia is revisiting me. This time it has brought along a new aspect, and that is indecipherable dreams that wake me up to start the sleepless part of the night. It is impossible to describe these dreams because they contain fragments of memories from my past, with vague impressions of people I used to know.

None of these dreams are alarming, at least they haven’t been so far. There are some frightening aspects, but they don’t cause me to wake up in a cold sweat. I’m sure that , y psychiatrist friend would charge overtime to listen to me, but he has his concerns as he deals with cancer. I won’t burden him with my petty problems.

I’m listening to some music as I write, and try to prepare myself to try sleeping again because it helps relax me and the is what I need.

Ignoring The Noise


If there is a better way to turn off the world for awhile than music, I don’t want to know what that is. Music is always with me and I consider music to be almost the best thing in the world. I honestly don’t know what I would do some days without a world of music to close out the noise of the actual world around me.

I was going through the motions at work this afternoon, desperate for the workday top just end, and my motivation was really dropping. I asked my Google Home speaker to play Dvorak. Immediately, I was transported to places I only dreamed about on the wings of his music. 

Music can get me through anything. Work, social distancing, anything. Let music take you away on an adventure sometime soon.

Another Decision Made

As life settles into its new routine here at our new apartment, I have begun to think about the things I said that I was going to take care of once the move was over. One item on the list is a guitar upgrade. I have been holding back for some time now, but I am almost ready to take the plunge. I predict that by the end of summer I will have a new guitar.

I thought about a Fender Player Strat. An excellent guitar and one that sounds awesome. I like the price, but there is something about it that keeps me from making that final decision.

The guitar that I have decided upon is the Paul Reed Smith SE Custom 24. There are two stunning versions of this guitar and my choice is down to these two versions

Paul Reed Smith SE Custom 24 Left Handed Trampas Green – Bay Tunes ...
PRS SE Custom 24 Left-Handed - Charcoal Burst | Sweetwater

The Trampas Green is absolutely beautiful, I have seen one in person, but the Charcoal Burst version is also a treasure to look at. These guitars sound awesome and they are so comfortable to hold, they just feel perfect to me.

Never A Good Sign

I woke up this morning with a blinding headache. I am still working from home today, but I have canceled the conference calls that normally give me mild headaches rather than aggravate this monster headache that is building behind my eyeballs this morning. So far, my blood glucose levels have been within range, so this headache is caused by some different factor that I haven’t identified yet.

I’m listening to some Jazz music at low volume since that usually helps me at any time, but especially when I am not feeling well. At least I don’t have any pressing things lined up for the rest of the day and I can focus on feeling better and getting some rest after work. Of course, I might just submit a request to take part of the day off anyway.

I planned to make spaghetti after work today, but I will wait and see how much better I feel before confirming that decision. I have plenty of food here and the task now is to make certain that we finish up what we already have before we move in a few weeks because I don’t expect that we will transport a lot of food with us when we move.

I had completely forgotten about my appointment with the Chiropractor and Acupuncturist this afternoon. Perhaps they will help with this monster headache and keep it from recurring. I am definitely going to miss the visits to these professionals, I will have to find new ones where we are moving to in the near future. At least this gives me something to look forward to other than cooking after work.

In order to keep my headache from getting worse, I decided to cook the spaghetti for lunch since it doesn’t take much time in the kitchen. I forgot to take any pics, that will have to wait until next time I make spaghetti. My mind was too unfocused to remember. The spaghetti should be done by lunchtime, and I can enjoy it during the one conference call that I cannot ignore today.

Hal has been in the living room watching the infoporn shows all morning long. It is a shame that we disagree on the value of those shows. I find them pointless and irritating, while Hal finds them informative. I cannot imagine ever wanting to know the stupid types of bullshit that those shows specialize in covering. To me, any show that has people sitting around a table and pretending to be your friends are automatically suspect and I won’t watch them.

I am just hoping now to make it through the rest of the day, get to the Chiropractor and Acupuncturist, and then rest at home tonight without any distractions or interruptions because I deserve it.

If I Had More Time

The next question on my Journaling journey is “What would I do if I had more time?”. Always an interesting question, and it requires some serious thought to answer. Would I strive to be better at work to justify making more money so we could have nicer things? Would I decide to spend that extra time at home resting? Perhaps I would spend more time with my guitar? The possibilities are endless but the question seems to demand only one answer.

I would definitely spend that extra time at home with Hal and The Stooges because, without them in my life, I don’t even know if I would be alive. They are the center of things in my world and they deserve all the time and attention I can give to them. They provide me with everything I need to be alive. The love is unconditional and free-flowing in this household and that is the best feeling in the world. 

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