Dreamer’s World December 13, 2018 – Recovery

Yesterday was a day that started with truly agonizing pain. I wrote on the 11th about a pain in the neck, part of which was physical. That pain in my neck and back had me incapacitated Wednesday morning. I called in sick to work and was preparing for a day of popping aspirin until the afternoon when my regular Chiropractor and Acupuncture appointments were scheduled.

Hal saw the pain I was in, and he got his massage table out and told me to get on there so he could help me out. He busted his ass for over an hour working my neck and back muscles until they finally relaxed. I still felt sore, but this time it was good because I knew that he had really helped me out. I was able to relax through the day before my appointment.

I told the Chiropractor what had happened and he said that Hal had done a remarkable job of relieving the pressure points with all of the muscles, but he was still able to crack my neck to the point where I saw stars. The Acupuncturist also took mercy on me and hooked up the electrodes on some of the needles. I left the office feeling tremendously better. I was so happy with what Hal had done for me in the morning that I picked him up and took him out for dinner.

I am so lucky to have a partner like Hal. I slept well last night and this morning I returned to work here at home. I am still incredibly sore, but I know that this soreness is the result of all the work that was done on me yesterday. Thankfully, this will be a slow day at work and I don’t plan to deal with any trifling shit from people at all. I am spending today at work catching up on emails and phone calls and will not be putting any extra pressure on myself.

Tomorrow will be a short day at work because the local employee off-site happy hour is taking place in the afternoon.

I will make it through today, feeling better with each passing minute.

Dreamer’s World December 11, 2018 – A Real Pain In The Neck

I know I am getting older when I fall asleep on the couch and my head slumps forward. I wake up and realize what has happened and find out that my neck is in agony as I raise my head back up. Thankfully, I go to the Chiropractor and Acupuncturist tomorrow, so I should get some relief then. Until that time, I will be popping aspirin to relieve the pain and making every effort to avoid falling asleep like that again.

The other pain in my neck isn’t physical. I am in need of some time off work. The responsibilities have changed recently, and I am not as passionate about my job as I have been in the past. I know that I need some time away to adjust my outlook, but that is next to impossible right now. I am still absorbing all the knowledge that I can about the new tasks I have. Most people have already blocked off their time away for the holidays and that leaves me with little chance to get away right now. Normally, I try to save up my vacation time for warmer and more pleasant weather but the change has me really needing some time away soon.

The combination of these pains in my neck has me feeling rather down right now. I will keep pushing forward and do the best I can for as long as possible. If I get lucky, I can take a day or so off to recover from all of the nonsense.

Dreamer’s World December 10, 2018 – Another Brick In The Wall

This time of the year, everything feels like it is nearing the end, not necessarily the completion, just the end. All the efforts I have focused on throughout 2018 have either succeeded or failed, there is almost no chance of the results changing between now and the end of the year. More than anything else, I feel like I am just going through the motions right now with no discernable difference being made.

Attempts to better myself have met with mixed success. Regardless, I feel that I am a better person than I was at the start of 2018. Perhaps time will create a sense of real accomplishment, but right now it doesn’t generate much satisfaction. Not that I did anything specifically for recognition, but it does help to be acknowledged.

Right now, things just seem to be repetitive with the end slowly emerging in the distance. Until then the repetition seems like Another Brick In The Wall.

Dreamer’s World December 10, 2018 – Shrugging Off The Past

The weekend was busy. I had very little time to myself, so I was more than a little surprised when I got a text message from a number I never heard of before. The message was out of left field, The message referred to a friendship that was no longer welcome.

I did some digging and eventually found out that the message was from someone who told me to get bent nearly four years ago. Obviously, he had forgotten about the time he clearly told me that our friendship was over, for whatever fucked-up reasons he had at that time. I wrote about the experience when it happened, and then I moved on.

It was rather unnerving to get that text, but it reminded me that I made the right choice by never responding directly to it all those years ago.