I attended a virtual Happy Hour with sone of my former coworkers. We do this on a semi regular basis, but as my time away from the job grows longer, the gatherings are more and more uncomfortable. Several of the people on the team I worked with have moved on to other jobs within the company, or out of the company altogether. Things are not remotely the way they were 2 years ago.

I wonder how much longer these gatherings will take place. My interest is less than it was. There is less and less to talk about because our common ground has disappeared from under our feet. I will give them perfunctory updates about my health, and they will talk about whatever they want to talk about, and we will be done in less than an hour.

I used to have a least one beer during these meetings to appear social. Now, I don’t even bother. I don’t need to drink alcohol anymore, and why should I make any effort for a virtual meeting anyway?

as I mentioned earlier, I don’t know how many more of these meetings we will have. I realize that I just don’t care anymore. The feeling that I was isolated and alone has become normal for me. The virtual meeting don’t help that at all.

I dialed into the meeting 5 minutes early because there is always some type of technical issue to be resolved, but at the designated start time I was the only person online.. while this was too early to write off the meeting, I was not surprised at all.