Letting Go

Letting Go

The most challenging thing I’ve had to do recently is to let go of things that hold me back. Whether it is possessions or lack of, I have what I need to survive. I don’t need more stuff in my life right now. Learning to be happy with what I have makes living with less much easier.

Another habit to break is comparing my life to other people’s lives. Envy is poisonous to the soul and keeps me from happiness. I must learn to be happy for other people without wanting to be like them. Focusing on my life will bring that inner peace I desperately crave.

I meditate each day to keep my focus strong and to remember that my life is great when I take the time to appreciate things without external pressure.

Some people are just evil

Teen Hospitalized With COVID Accused of Being a Nazi by Anti-Vaxxers

Maisy Evans, 17, is struggling to speak or even breathe, and has encouraged other young people to get vaccinated. 

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A teenager hospitalized with COVID-19 is being attacked by anti-vaccine activists who are calling her a liar, a crisis actor, and a Nazi after she urged other young people to get vaccinated.

Maisy Evans, 17, from south Wales in the UK, is struggling to speak or even breathe after contracting the virus. From her hospital bed, she warned other young people about the dangers of COVID-19.

“This virus is not a joke for young people,” Maisy wrote on social media. “Those eligible must get vaccinated.”

Evans was initially hospitalized last week after suffering from headaches, breathlessness, nausea, achy muscles, dizziness and a loss of taste and smell.

After she was admitted, initially doctors feared she had meningitis or sepsis “but after plenty of blood tests, X-rays, and CT scans, a COVID-related blood clot has been found on my right lung,” Evans tweeted.

Evans revealed she was taking “antibiotics, steroids, morphine and blood thinners” and that her body was unable to regulate its oxygen levels.

But immediately, Evans’ social Twitter account was inundated with attacks from anti-vaxxers who claimed the clot on her lung was related to the fact that she had received the first dose of the Pfizer vaccine.

Some media reports claimed she had received the jab just three days prior to being hospitalized, but Evans clarified that she had received the first dose two weeks prior to being admitted to hospital.

She added that the doctors had confirmed the clot on her lung was triggered by her infection and not by the vaccine.

But that didn’t stop the trolls from attacking her.

“The attacks from anti-vaxxers started around 24 hours after I tweeted about my experience,” Evans told VICE News. “They got worse and worse after an inaccurate article was published by a popular media outlet. I’ve been called a liar, a paid government actress, Satan, a Nazi, evil and so much more. It’s totally uncalled for.”

Evan has also received a lot of direct messages which she calls “really hateful and quite upsetting.” 

“People have said I’d be blamed for any deaths caused by vaccines, that God is watching over me and that I will ‘feel the justice.’ It seems some people are almost obsessed with me, posting old pictures of me on their social media platforms, posting messages about me. It’s very strange if you ask me,” Evans said.

Evans said she is trying to focus on recovering from her illness, so she hasn’t read all the hateful messages that have been posted about her. But any of those she has read, she has reported to Twitter.

So far “nothing has come from the reports. I’m not sure what the procedures are for social media platforms. Maybe something will come of them soon. I know a lot of my friends and family have been reporting the public comments, too.”

Twitter didn’t immediately respond to VICE News’ request for comment on the attacks against Evans.

The anti-vax movement has long been focused on the threats they imagine vaccines pose to children. And now that many nations are extending their COVID-19 vaccine programs to people under the age of 18—because they have been deemed safe by the World Health Organization and national regulators like the Food and Drug Administration—the movement is trying to prevent children getting vaccinated.

Anti-vaxxers are claiming that COVID-19 has little or no impact on children but as Evans’ situation shows, that’s simply not true. This week a healthy but unvaccinated 19-year-old died after spending two weeks in hospital with COVID-19, leaving her family devastated that they’d chosen not to get vaccinated.

Using hashtags like #LeaveOurKidsAlone, the anti-vax movement has sought to undermine trust in the vaccines, but in some cases, teenagers themselves have co-opted these hashtags to say they cannot wait to get the vaccine.

Evans, who is a former member of the Welsh youth parliament, said she has no idea who is behind the attacks, but labels her trolls “keyboard warriors.”

“Some are part of alliances but they all seem to be ‘keyboard warriors’,” Evans said. “They’ve made the situation political because of my background and there was no need for that. Simply, I’ve been unwell. I have not been paid by any government to act unwell, although I damn wish I was. It’s been a hell of a journey and I wouldn’t wish the experience upon anyone.”

Priorities

     I woke up very early this morning and almost immediately started thinking about money. Worrying about money is not unusual for me when I can’t sleep, but it is also a habit that I need to break.
     Finances are tight since going on disability, and I have made significant changes to my lifestyle. Each month I review any spending and try to find new ways to save money. So far, I have managed to cut spending dramatically.
     Tonight, I decided to look at things differently. Rather than focus on what I am worried about, I thought about what I already have; and what is already great in my life. I have the things that I need. Things I want are worrying me, which is a recipe for disaster.
     When I wake up and worry about money, I need to focus on waking up. I am alive. Stress won’t help me get through the day. Remaining calm and living in the moment keeps me centered and balanced. When I reach that state of contentment, I can face anything.
     Life is not always pleasant, but it is a lot more enjoyable than we think. We condition ourselves to find faults before anything else. While striving for perfection is a noble idea, it can make us miserable because no one ever achieves it.