A Strange Place

I’m in a strange place emotionally right now. I feel like I’m back in the hospital in the middle of the night. I look over and see Hal The Cat sleeping beside me, so I know I’m at home. I can not explain this feeling except possibly the anniversary of my hospitalization.

Labor Day of last year, I went to the Emergency Room at the local hospital because I was short of breath and felt a terrible tingling sensation all over my body. I was admitted, and the first five long hospital stays began.

Eventually, I was diagnosed with COPD, but every time I was sent home, I was back in the hospital within two weeks. By Thanksgiving, I went back to the hospital and honestly thought I was about to die.

I’m not sure how close I came to dying. My kidneys shut down, and Hal (person) told the hospital to do whatever it takes to save me. Fortunately, I was unconscious while this happened to me. I woke up in a new hospital 50 miles away, where they were able to treat me.

I must be reliving one year ago in my mind. I do feel better than last year. I’ve not been in the hospital since December 16, 2020. I was warned that flashbacks might occur from time to time, so that must be what I’m experiencing now.

I am on disability now. I don’t know if I’ll be able to return to work. I’m at peace with my situation and making slow progress each day. I am lucky to have Hal (person ) and The Stooges with me so I’m not alone. I realize how fortunate I am to be here.