“I’m going to go every year until I die, whether Covid kills me or a head-on collision,” he said. “That’s the way I am.”
— Read on www.cnn.com/2021/08/06/us/sturgis-motorcycle-rally-covid/index.html
A New Jersey gym owner and former MMA fighter pleaded guilty on Friday to assaulting a police officer during the January 6 insurrection, marking the first time a Capitol rioter has been convicted of violence against police.
— Read on www.cnn.com/2021/08/06/politics/capitol-rioter-assault-police-new-jersey-mma/index.html
I have been dealing with many issues recently, and I haven’t written as I should. Whenever I fall behind with my writing, tension and uneasiness creep into my life. My peace of mind vanishes, and I feel worse with each passing day.
I had several dreams about my job and my future recently. I’ve been on disability this entire year. The company I work for is taking me off their health plan, although they promise that they “still care” about me. I wonder about that since the communication has almost completely stopped.
I have to focus on my health, so I’m applying for permanent disability. At least the long-term disability plan I have is a good one, and the company can’t force me back to work without medical clearance. That’s a relief for me.
Hal believes that I should go on permanent disability and not go back to work. I understand his point of view and am leaning towards it. I’ll gain nothing by putting myself into a constant stream situation by returning to work.
As for the suspicion, I’ve had several dreams where I could not get logged onto my work computer. I could get no help from anyone, and it felt like I didn’t exist. I believe that this is a sign that going back is not where my future lies. I still have terrible days, health-wise, so I think that my dreams are preparing me for the inevitable permanent break with my employer. I’m at peace with it now.