Learning All Over Again

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Learning All Over Again

I’m starting this day thankful for many things, even though I’m broke right now, meditation has taught me to be happy in the moment. In fact, my new sense of calm seems to be helping with another aspect of my life that I’m not happy with, and that is my health.
Since I am not going anywhere, I have to resist the urge to eat unnecessarily. In the past, I have used food as a crutch. I have to learn that I can control what is happening to my body. This morning I felt my blood sugar levels drop, and a quick check confirmed this. Rather than grabbing a large meal from the kitchen, Hal suggested a banana. The banana helped, but I realized that I would need more to get my sugar level back up to normal.
Once again, I was faced with a choice; I could listen to my emotional side and fix a big meal, or I could listen to my rational side and take a few glucose tablets. Thankfully, I followed the latter path and my blood sugar is back to normal without going high. I am pleased with myself for this small example of self-control. Learning all over again how to control my blood sugar might be the most important thing from my financial hardship. It’s all in how we look at things.

Thankful

Thankful

I am in a bind financially until the end of this month. I had an unexpected car expense of nearly $600 that had to be taken care of, which destroyed my monthly budget. While this is unpleasant and uncomfortable, it does make me focus on what I have rather than what I lack. In fact, I have to be thankful that I could take care of the expense at the time.

I can also be thankful that I recognize my budget needs to be adjusted in the future for the next unexpected expense. While I make plans for the future, I am thankful that we have a roof over our heads and enough food to make it until next payday.

I am thankful that this is the first time I’m facing a situation like this. I’m thankful that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I take solace from the lesson learned after reading “Down and Out in Paris and London” by George Orwell many years ago. Once you hit bottom, you realize that you are still alive.

I’m thankful for the desire to write and express myself, and I’m thankful for those who read my words. I’m thankful if my words help someone else, and I hope they pay that help forward to someone else who can then be thankful.