The Sound of Silence
I endured a lot over the last six months. I was hospitalized multiple times and nearly died at one point. Through it all, I had Hal by my side
During my hospital stays, friends reached out to me. Their messages and conversations were keys to my recovery and return home in December.
Now that February is here, the silence that existed before my hospital stays has returned. The difference is that now it comes as no shock. When texts sent to multiple friends fail to generate any response from all but one of them, it is time to raise the emotional barriers once again.
I will always be grateful to the friends who supported me when I was down, but I can’t invest effort in those people when everything has gone back to the one-sided status quo from before.
I will be here for them if they need me as I needed them, but I can’t see the free-flowing communication I briefly enjoyed returning.
This is my hard-ass side showing to everyone else, but to me, it is the re-establishment of barriers to protect myself from getting involved in stagnant relationships.