I am so tired of being in the hospital. Every time I am here the doctor wants to explore some new possibilities about why I’m having trouble breathing. I appreciate the concern, but I really would like a definitive answer about what’s wrong, and what to do about it.
I’m tired and bored this afternoon. The well wishes have lost their intended affect on me, not because of any insincerity; but because I’m tired of hearing them so frequently. Even Hal had to take a break from visiting me today because he hasn’t o pay for Uber or Lyft to get back and forth to the hospital, and that adds up to about $25 per day. I can’t blame him, but it makes me feel even more isolated and depressed.
I am trying to keep a positive attitude, but times like this really make that difficult to do. I haven’t posted near as much as I have written because when I proofread the entries I realize how awful they sound. I will keep trying to do my best here, to follow the doctor‘s advice,And to take better care of myself. That’s all that I can do for the time being.
I hope that Hal feels better because he did mention that he was tired this morning and that was one of the reasons he’s not coming over to visit this afternoon. I believe him, and I know this has to be difficult for him. I don’t want him to come down sick because that’s the last thing both of us need.
I’ve really never suffered from the holiday depression syndrome That everyone talks about. However, this year that might be different because here I am in the hospital the week before Thanksgiving with no idea when I’ll be going home. I certainly hope to go home before the holiday so I can spend it with HaL and the stooges. I’ve made plans for Thanksgiving dinner, nothing out of the ordinary, we’ll either have salmon, chicken, or pork chops I’ll be prepared for any eventuality. It will only take a couple of items from the grocery store to complete any meal that we choose to have on Thanksgiving. I’m looking forward to going home. I’m looking forward to going home and not coming back to the hospital. I’m looking forward to going home and not coming back to the hospital and enjoying the Thanksgiving and the rest the holidays for a change.