Interest Waning

There are days when I wish that I could just purchase that magic lottery ticket and then leave all the shit behind me, go away and retire with Hal and The Stooges somewhere civilized overseas. Sadly, that day hasn’t arrived yet and I’m stuck here daydreaming about it as I wait for quitting time to finally arrive.

Today has been one of those days when little things continue to pile up and go wrong, which makes everything else seem even worse. The only relief is the late afternoon once I sign out from work and can then try to relax on my own. My motivation continues to erode as the day drags on. At least I know that tomorrow will be much quieter since a lot of people are making it a long weekend.

Personally, I wish that I I could do that as well, but I am still trying to build up my personal time after the hospital stay just before Labor Day. That unplanned time off now affects me at times like this, when I would love to take time off for my own enjoyment. Right now, I din’t think that will be a possibility until early next year.

There is nothing that has to be done after work. I have everything I need for the evening already here, and tomorrow will be Friday anyway. There will be a trip to the grocery store at some point, but that doesn’t have to be today or even tomorrow. As I get older, I value my own time more and more. I have been contributing to work all of my life and I would love to just slow down and relax.